Welcome to the latest edition of Subtle Maneuvers, my fortnightly newsletter on wriggling through a creative life. It’s been one year since I turned on paid subscriptions for this newsletter, and I thought I’d use the occasion to ask a question that’s been nagging at me, namely: Why is it so hard to ask for money for my work??
Specifically, why is it so hard to ask readers—all of you—to pay for my writing? Because I do find it difficult in a sort of complicated way. I feel bad for asking you to chip in, and then I feel bad for feeling bad. What a mess! Here are two theories for why this may be.
But, first, for all of you who have opted to support the newsletter: Thank you so much! It means a ton, and I’ve been thinking about a potential new subscriber perk for you—more on that below.
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